It's good to step back sometimes and just be reflective. To let the pitch just pass by and accept that you're simply not ready to take a swing at it, or catch it, or whatever it is that you're supposed to do at pitching time. I don't actually know what the rules are.
This week has been a peaceful one. It's a word that stands in stark contrast to the time of year. Everyone is dashing round getting ready for the imminent school holidays, the festive season, the end of the year. Everywhere I go people are telling me about their shopping lists, the 'to-do's' and 'what's next.'
And the thing is, I know I'm in a similar position to them. But these past few days I just haven't felt ready or able for it all. I've felt like someone on the sidelines just watching it all pass by in a bit of a blur. I knew why. I've allowed myself that time and space.
But yesterday afternoon I went out with a friend to play bingo. We sat in a huge hall and I didn't have a clue what to do. And the people sitting round us were so kind and helpful. Within minutes I morphed into some kind of bingo demon and joined in with the cheers and groans of the crowd as the games played out.
I had fun. I laughed and smiled again.
We went out for dinner as a family last night. This has been a recipe for disaster in the past. My shoulders have usually ended up surgically attached to my ears as I hiss: "Sit still!" or "STOP playing with the salt shaker!" But last night, the food was great, the kids were good and we laughed and loved and left the restaurant surrounded in that bubble of happiness. The one that a glass of wine and great company can give you.
So as a new week begins, I feel revived. Ready to start again.
Ready to play.
Hope you have a great week xxx
14 comments:
sounds like yesterday was just what you needed! sometimes it's the most silliest trivial things that can do our soul the most good, for you yesterday, that was bingo. the family dinner was just the icing on the cake.
~x~
Sometimes doing something out of the ordinary, turns out to be lots of fun....let's do it again sometime soon ...your dinner sounded wonderful too xx
WE all need a break for the routine, I'm looking forward to some time off soon. I play Bingo at home with mum xx
I think it's great you have allowed yourself that time and space (to grieve, and just be) rather than throw yourself head first into tasks to keep busy and mind occupied. Good for you, I imagine your head is in a good space right about now. xo
Yes, we do all need time-out at times. When things seem a little bit too much it's important to slow down a little bit and assess what matters and what can wait and then look after ourselves. It equips us to be revitalised and 'keep calm and carry on' (that phrase I keep reading everywhere.) Glad you're feeling better today : )
Good idea to sit it out for a bit, and to sit with the grief. And grief pops back up here and there and that's just fine, normal too.
I've had the bad habit of avoiding distress by making myself so busy I can't thing or have no time to feel. That never works!!
I laughed at what you wrote about going out to eat with children, oh, I can so relate....
Hope you can keep some calm over the next few weeks, and if you have any spare, send some over to me.
this made me smile thinking of you smiling.
x
Sometimes we leap through life in search of the extraordinary missing the joy of ordinary. This week I think you have captured the exquisiteness of it all. Thank you for sharing your smiles.
Oh the Bingo!
My mum was a bingo player and once tried to get me to come along. I was thirty something and refused to go as I didn't want to feel "old", because back then bingo was an oldies night out thing. I'm still avoiding it, for the same reason. I may rethink this in 10 years or so.
Wonderful.
I adore Bingo so much ... even have my own dabbers. Maybe we can go together one day.
XX
What is it about Bingo that just makes me smile? Batter up, Sar! x
I know how you feel. Usually every holiday season I feel anxious about the cooking and cleaning and preparation of it all that I don't enjoy a thing and I wish it would just go away. This year we were invited by family to their home and it was nice to just sit and relax and not feel like I had to host all day. Plus, my daughter was in good spirits and had family around her so my husband and I didn't have to get up every 5min. to check on her and make sure she was ok. The entire weekend we spent with friends and family and weren't home once. Usually this makes me feel guilty because my house is in shambles but I just didn't care. I enjoyed myself and knew that Monday would roll around and I could get back to my things then. Sometimes you just have to let go in order to get back to yourself.
I know how you feel my friend it is hard to keep going some times when you have had to say good bye to someone special, yet you know you have too for your family and yourself. I hope you have a day full of laughter tomorrow too my friend.
Always Wendy
Yes not just the silly season that does this to us. I have asked myself for such a long time 'how did life get so out of control'. So glad you were able to find a moment to laugh and enjoy and share a precious evening with your beautiful family. Good for you! Cheers SpecialK XoXo
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